Sunny Sunday

It’s Saturday

The week is almost over and here I am writing another entry, I must say updating this blog once a week is a good thing and I like it.

How is everyone? I am hoping you are well and have had a good week. 

My week was up and down but Christmas went a little better than I expected. 

Next week starts a new year! 2019 has been up and down for me, it also brought very bad things to me and I put myself in harm's way. 

I guess I never learn from mistakes or I think I do but then I just repeat them and it never ends well for me. I am trying to be better but there are days where it gets bad. 

No, we won’t talk about the bad days, just trying to remain positive is a task that I am working on.

Not much is new with me, made it through the 2nd week of the new job which I love! Its tough being up 19 hours a day working but its extra money and I get out of the house which sometimes does not happen often.

I was making plans for today but made other plans since a few people didn’t get back to me in enough time. I have to plan around my work schedule and it’s ok if you don’t understand. I just have to make other arrangements.

There is so much more I want to say but it’s not anything positive or happy. I’m not super happy but trying and a lot of things are not working out which sucks. It’s not easy being super positive every day.

Not sure when I will return to streaming either, won’t get into that too much now because it's all negative which needs to be a private entry or written on paper.

I need to get ready, going to do some stuff today and make time for some knitting and maybe watch a movie.

I finished watching The Witcher on Netflix, maybe I will get the book series? 

One other thing that is good is…..   I am making a goals list for 2020! Have some stuff written down and still thinking of goals to reach.

So January - May will be short term goals

June and July are mid-way goals

August to December is long term goals. 

You are welcome to put suggestions in the comments if you want, I am looking for new ideas and things to do for goals.

Now I am feeling better since getting all of that out. Going to get ready and go do what I need to and then come home for knitting and a movie or Netflix.

It’s Sunday now and this may be a long post, lol.

Today is going better than yesterday and that I am happy. I can say I did not want to get out of bed this morning but I did and got ready for church.

Yes, I go to church and will not push or force religion on anyone, if you go to church that is great. If you don’t go that is ok too.

Everyone does what works for them and to be honest, I rarely went to church until 2 years ago. No joke, I started going after y grandmother passed away and have gone since. I like the church I attend and I get to see people at church that I now call friends.

Today I am going to try and focus on being happy, doing something for myself (movie or watch a tv show) and do laundry and try to get some knitting done.

So I will be ending this long post, going to try and make this week a good week and I just got my gratitude journal in the mail and got my rage page journal too.

Have a great day wherever you and I will post next Sunday in 2020 :)

Another Week Gone

Hello everyone! I hope you are doing well today and remember to take time for yourself if you need it.

It's almost Christmas here in the States and the holiday is a bit tough for me. I lost my grandmother over 2 years ago and I was Mimi's girl. I miss her a lot and this holiday is tough for me.

The week has gone by fast but I did make it through my first week at the new job. It has been an adjustment too, I am used to a big cafeteria and many employees, now I am in a smaller cafeteria and work with 6 other people.

The new job is going great and I get the weekend off which is even better! I'm liking the new job and I think it was a good decision to start a new job.

Lately, I have been dealing with mental health issues which I will not hide. I am in therapy to help as well as finding 3 positives throughout the day. I am working on being more positive but there are times where I still get down on myself.

It's not easy but working towards a better self is a start in the right direction. It could be the winter blues as well since the sun is not always out plus I don't get out often so that could be a factor too. I'm also trying to recognize triggers and make sure I can step away from things if needed.

The other day I made a decision to not stream anymore. I think it's the best idea for now and no I won't give up entirely on streaming, just need to step back for a lot longer than maybe rebuild after that.

I think I will highlight some positives from the week;

1. I started a new job and made it through the first week.
2. Did some knitting
3. I registered my car and made some bill payments.

Those 3 things are good positives for me. I just need to work on a few other bills and I will be caught up which is good.

I hope anyone who celebrates Christmas has a great holiday and I will update in a week which means an update before New Year's Eve!

Hoping 2020 will be better for me.

Sunday Blues Hopefully Turn Into Happy Sunday

Hello!!!!

It's Sunday again and that means another update and another week has gone by us. Also, Christmas is next week.

I hope all is well with everyone who reads this blog, some past posts may have drama in them but I am trying to be. more positive and talk more about my week and other things.

Starting tomorrow, I start my new job which I am excited about! I am leaving one job for this job and hopefully, it will be a good change of scenery. It's very early when I start and I get out early but is a Monday through Friday job.

I didn't keep track of what happened during the week like I wanted too. A few things were brought to my attention and it was good that they were brought to my attention. I have been going through a very negative phase? Not sure if phase would be the right word to use but I have not been in a good mindset for a while.

I have started therapy, I need to take care of myself and figure out what are my triggers and figure out what I want in life. I also want to make goals whether they are short term goals or long term goals but it will be something to work towards.

Other than being negative, my week has been good. The college cafeteria is now on winter break and I had Friday off from work! Friday was a great day with a very positive morning too. I did a test stream because my Apple computer updated so I wanted to make sure that OBS worked.

So my test stream turned into chatting then got raided with a party of 81 then stream turned into knitting and chatting then we took our fun over to another streamer with a party of 59! It was a great morning and I followed a new streamer who also crafts.

Knitting helps me relax and I love to knit but there are days where I have no energy to knit. I plan to branch out and do some more crafts when I stream and figure out what I want from streaming.

Streaming takes a lot of mental energy and I want to be happy with what I am doing and want viewers to be happy with what I am doing too.

I think that is all I have for right, I am watching a streamer who also knits but does spinning (yarn) and relaxing for today. I believe I have my first cold and I am staying home to rest today and drink plenty of fluids so I can be 100% tomorrow for my first day!

I will update again on Sunday but you may find a random post during the week if I am feeling up to it.

Thank you for reading, have a beautiful day wherever you are <3

Happy Sunday!

Well, here I am again and it's Sunday. I think I need to update this blog once a week and that way if anyone wants to follow they can.

I hope all of you are well and in good spirits!

I'm doing great and yesterday was my birthday which I did spend alone celebrating but went out last night to do snack crate with fellow streamers. It was fun and I had a great time. Many laughs and trying snacks from Australia! Some not so great but the point of snack crate is to try new things.

Snack crate is a monthly subscription box and you get a different country every month. It's fun getting the email with he tracking link in it.

I don't normally stream my snack crate but maybe I will next month. Will give it some thought but for now its about relaxing.

I stream on twitch with knitting and I have been taking a mental health break which was much needed. There are things that trigger me in different ways and sometimes its not good for me or other people so a plan will be put into place.

Not sure what exactly but I need to make a plan so I can either step back, take time off from twitch or find another way to cope.

Its not easy and sometimes social media can affect me mentally too, I log out of Facebook an d barley log on. I do much better when logged out of Facebook but then there is twitter, discord and twitch. It can be tough at times but other times it's great being on social media.

I am in great spirits today, feel great, got outside and the sun is shining! I will always work on my mental health and just need to make a plan, write out positives like when I got affiliate status on twitch, have many followers, made scarfs for people and that I am good enough.

There will be days I feel that I am not good enough but hopefully that can change and bring more positive things to the world. It may take awhile, need to work on this everyday.

The plan for now is to update this blog every Sunday and recap the week. Will make an alarm in my phone to remind myself to make a post and I can always write a draft and save it then post it.

Hope you all enjoyed my ramblings and now I am going to knit, real and watch some Netflix and some Twitch.

Have great day!