Here's to Hoping

I applied for a press pass today for Anime Boston's 2015, hope I get it. I have reviewed more books than anime on my other blog. I read more than watch anime and it's tough to balance everything.

I will buy a regular pass before they stop that to be safe, this way I can still pick it up on the night before the con.

So not much else is new, I went to the gym today and did a light workout which felt good. I'm hoping to go again on Monday as long as the weather is good. We are supposed to get snow again.

Okay I am tired so going to sleep and hopefully update ore tomorrow.

Good night everyone and sweet dreams!

Time to Update

So I have been working and neglecting this blog and my review blog too!

I have started writing and I'm not sure it makes sense but it's a start. Also I have about 2500 words so far and that is better than nothing.

Now I'm really feeling down and I hate when I am like this, no matter what I do I'm just never good enough and I'm that much of a loser. Most people tell me I'm not a loser but I  know that I am.

No one wants to hang out with me when I'm not working, no one   calls or text (except family) and I'm only good enough to work. No matter what I do or when I try to do something out of my norm, it never woks and it sucks.

I'm trying to be positive today but will see how the rest of the day goes.

Music i splaying right now and it's on Lindsey Stirling, love her music. So I'm hoping to have a better day and hopefully get more writing done. I am also going to read later today because I have been neglecting that this week.

Another thing that is bugging me, a friend of mine has bought shirts with her logo on it for photography. I'm glad she is getting word out and it just surprises me because she always tells me she never has any money! How do you have enough money for shirts and a con???

I just don't understand and it just boggles my mind that somehow she has money even though she says she doesn't. I don't think I will ever understand ever.

Okay, going to do some writing and charge my kindle cause I'm sure the battery is almost dead

Today

Today has been good and it was pay day. Trying to save what I get for take home pay and I did not spend a lot today. I did get what I needed and paid the phone bill, paid half since my ex is still on it. I sent him a text and told him what he owed and when it was due.

My ex and I share a account that both of us are on and when his phone is paid off, I will have the account closed. He put money in and his half of the phone bill is paid. So ijust need to pay the other half which I will next week.

Also I bought Vikings on DVD for $15 at Target, trying to drink less soda too.

In also doing very well with my 52 week money challenge, week 4 is done! I like this challenge and have rolls of quarters and snoopy will soon be heavy but I like this challenge. I can use this money for a vacation or something else.

Not much else to report but may post later.

Work Day

The college cafeteria reopened today a nd I worked 10a to 830p which is a long day for me. I'm very tired and will be sleeping soon but I enjoyed seeing everyone today and we got a new deli case!!!!!!!

It looks so much better and I think m,y volume is on for my tablet which it shouldn't so I keep getting sounds every time there is a notification, lol.

Okay, going to relax and do some more reading before bed. I have home health care tomorrow at 7am and ya I need to rest.

Looking Back On Things

I'm watching NCIS and the episode I am watching is dealing with an abusive couple. Now 2 woman are dead and they think its the husband who is the murderer.

It makes me look back on my previous relationship and how it may have turned psychically abusive, my ex   never hit me but you never know and I sometimes wonder if that would have happened to me.

I was emotionally and mentally abused and left in    such a miserable state that I have my walls back uppp and its hard to trust men again.

Part of me thinks that I could have been physically abused if I had stayed but I'm thankful I left that relationship and now single for over a year.

I'm still working on me and learning t trust again but that an take longer than one thinks.

So be aware of men that could be abusive regardless if its physical or mental.

Saving up Money

First I must say I love this mini keyboard!!! I got it with a cover for my tablet and I love it, just need to get used to a small keyboard.

Back to my entry, I sent a message out to a small group of friends about anime Boston. 2 of them are not sure they can afford to go but if they start saving some of the money now they could afford it.

Sometimes I wonder if they can afford anything but then they buy stuff all the time. I may not understand because I live rent free and family wont let me contribute to any bills. I have offered to pay towards bills but nope, wont let me. I pay my car insurance, gas, any food I buy and my phone bill.

Now like I said I may not understand there financials but I honestly think if they didn't do a lot of the things they do, they could save up.

Now if they don't go will the third person go? If they don't go its okay and then I have a room to myself, which I don't mind.

They just need to let me know ahead of time if they cant go, I'm not even sure how one person can go to Katsucon and  afford to go but cant afford Boston?

Oh well, I will be going and I get to go to a bruins game that weekend too so I will be in Boston!

Feeling Better!

Wow, I'm feeling so much better!! I should be good for work tomorrow and I'm happy to be feeling better it sucks when you get sick but if you drink lots of water and take good care of yourself, you will feel much better.

I stocked up on water and got emergenC pus nyquill and I will say this, I'm feeling a lot better than I did 48 hours ago!

I will continue with water and emergenC and hopefully get rid of everything by Saturday!More later

Doing Better

Doing a bit better but still not feeling good. I took Nyquill before bed and I didn't want to get up when my alarm went off at 6am. I picked up an extra shift today so I had to get up.

I will be taking a nap when Iget home and hopefully feel better by tonight. I did take Mucinex which helped and I took some today too.

Alright need to get back to work and then home.

Cough Getting Worse

My cough is not getting better and after talking to a nurse, I went and picked up mucinex and hope it works.

When I woke I was okay and there was nothing wrong but as I got  to work I was coughing. I hope its not getting worse because this is the season for the flu. I have my flu shot and its required for the nursing field and most jobs have now made it mandatory you get a flu shot.

I always get one so I hope I'm not getting the flu.

I'm home now and I have the morning off tomorrow which means I can sleep in a little longer and I could use some extra sleep.  I'm watching NCIS and took some Mucinex and I'm just going to relax, maybe do more reading.

I started a new book today and I LOVE IT!!!!!

So now back to NCIS (the original) and relaxing. Will update later tonight.

stay warm, safe and don't get sick!

Books, Work and a Cough

So I'm working today and I noticed I have a small cough, great! Not what I need plus its snowing today and I don't want the snow! Not much is new in my life but I am hoping to do  more reading today and finish a few books.

So far I am doing wonderful on my 52 week money challenge and my reading challenge, just need to remember to get quarters after work. I'm proud of myself so far and I have been sticking with the challenges which is good.

I have a poster board at home and I check off every week that I put money aside for the 52 week money challenge. Also I have Goodreads and track my book challenge through there

Things are good and I am happy with life, now to get back to work and do some reading. Maybe I will update later today

Have a great day everyone!

new keyboard for my tablet

testing out my new keyboard for my tablet and i will have to get used to the size, its very small but will do and this is much easier.

i work later today in the kitchen at the nursing home tonight but going to do some reading in between since i worked this morning for home healthcare already.

life is good and will update later.

Sun!

The sun is out!! 

We have had some really cold temps lately and I welcome the sun! Makes me happy too!

Now I'm going to do some more reading, since I took a few days off from it. I'm 5% of the way through my reading challenge rich is awesome!

And today I hope to at least get halfway through a book.

It's my goal and I like making them. They are realistic goals and hopefully I reach them all the way.

More later

Today not good

So my grampa tells me that I should go on a trip with friends. Well guess what, I have very few friends and they never want to go any where with me let alone trips!

He just doesn't understand no matter what I tell my gramp. This is why I go on trips or out to things by myself!!!

Nobody wants me around so I do everything on my own. 

End of rant

Brrrr! It's cold out

This is how cold it was at 7a! It's supposed to be colder tonight.

I'm staying home and not going out unless the nursing home calls.

Today has been a good day for me, not sad or feeling like a loser. I took a 4 hour nap after getting home.

I didn't sleep well because we lost heat last night and I kept waking up!

This never happens to me because I sleep soundly but last night was not soundly. I think it was because I was afraid it would not work.

So other than that, I'm in a very good mood. Also week 2 of my 52 week money challenge has been checked off!

My snoopy bank has $3 in it. So far so good with this challenge. I like it too and I have not opened snoopy to take any money out.

So I'm home watching NCIS season 7 and I need to get caught up on season 12, now to relax and hope to get some reading done today. 

Have an early morning tomorrow and working. :)

Life

I got up early because I had to hand in time sheets for hone health care. after I came back hone and watched movies.

One of those movies was The Mighty Ducks part 2. This is an old movie and how I miss it! Its crazy when you watch old movies and bring back memories.

I haven't done much else but relax and think on a new tattoo. I want it on my rib cage but I have no date planned for it. It will be in the future when I get it.

So I'm still pondering g my life and wish a travel agency would get back to me about a cruise but I'm not that important so loons lime I won't be going 😢

It sucks because I wanted to meet Jacob Wilson and Hilary Storm but looks like I won't be meeting them anytime soon.

I will post more tomorrow.

Laughing and Gard Work

I'm working hard tomorrow because I'm chipping away at ice in the driveway. 

It will suck but my grandfather can hardly walk so I need to get it done before 2p tomorrow.

He's flying in from Florida and I'm picking him up. I got an early morning, chipping ice, wash dishes, clean and do a dump run.

In other news, I'm watching NCIS season 11 and it is making me laugh.

Not all episodes make me laugh, some make me cry and I appreciate all the men and women serving in all branches of government here and overseas.

I love the show but not sure how I like the newcomer Elly Bishop. I'm still getting used to her.

So I'm relaxing then bed early to start chipping away at ice in the driveway. What a fun day I get to have.

I do get a few days off and I picked up a full shift Saturday night for the nursing. So I may be tired but I get to rest after a day of hard work.

More later tomorrow.

Bed time

So after a long day of work, it's time for bed.

Nothing new to report in my life. It's been an odd kind of day. I'm happy then I'm mad and everything in between.

So trying to figure out today but have come to a conclusion.

More later

Snow and reading

Well it's snowing very fast right now and I'm staying inside to do more reading!

Today was a good day. I went to Kringles candle shop with my aunt and uncle. I usually don't go out of town but today I did.

It was fun and think I should go back later.

Now I'm off to read since today has been very good for me. 

Life

I'm going to try and post everyday, I want to see how well I stick with it.

I'm doing ok today but still dealing with inner demons of not belonging to anything or anyone and how much of a loser I am.

Today has been good and I worked which is also good. 

The only downfall to today is the wind! Makes it much colder!!

My uncle stopped by earlier and has some scrubs for me from his mother and they are my size, I will need to send her a thank you card for them.

I'm also trying to read more books and put my negative energy into cleaning instead of brooding.

My reading challenge is 75 books! I have all year but I decided it's good for the brain so I have read 2 of 75 books so far :)

Tia year is about making goals and I have made a lot but going to try and stick with it!

I like today and tomorrow is a new day!

New Year

Ok, I have been feeling very lonely. Really trying to get my head around why I'm feeling like this and not sure what it is.

I went out shopping with my aunt today. I bought poster board and a new planner.

I'm making goals this year and I want to stick to them! So I will write my goals on the poster board and hang it up.

Also bought a snoopy bank, yes a Snoopy bank. I saw a picture on Facebook about a 52 week challenge on saving money. I'm going to try this and see how well I stick with it.

Not much else is new, I'm cleaning the place and doing laundry. It's time for a cleaning and I will relax later too.

So let me take a pic of snoopy for you and I'm still going to try and figure out why I'm not happy. Still have a journal I write in besides here.

My Snoopy bank for the 52 week money challenge.