Happy New Year's Eve!

It is New Year's Eve in the United States and I don't have plans to celebrate or go out, I'm usually asleep before midnight so I guess we will see what happens tonight.

How is everyone? I'm doing ok, still a little stressed out but I am making some New Year's Resolutions.

1. Walk outside 3x a week (I need to train for my upcoming 5k races) and it's also great for mental health too.

2. Put $200 aside every month or more if I can. 

That is all I have for now and I think they are attainable goals. This week I need to pay my phone bill and register my car which is not fun but these two things need to get done. 

I plan on staying home most of today and I don't need to go out unless I really want too but I can also go to the store across the street too if I need to. I may go to the bank to get some money out but honestly I don't need much for tonight.

The school district goes back to school on Wednesday provided we don't get crappy weather before then, I will be able to get out for walks and start training again for my first 5k of the season. The Red Cap Run/Walk is in February and I need to register but that I will do next week.

I will also look at my race bibs from before and look up those races too so I can sign up for those as well and plan ahead. I enjoyed doing the races and its a great way to get out and walk 3.1 miles.

That is my news for now, I don't have much else to write about but I may post later and may not. 

If you go out tonight please be safe and if you need to call a taxi!

It's Sunday!

Normally I stay offline on Sunday because I go to church and like to spend time with family, I however wanted to post before I forget what is in my head.

It's the day before New Year's Eve and its kinda a ghost town inn y hometown, well I'm sure people are around. I went out to lunch with the ladies from church and I needed that since I have been so stressed out since Christmas.

Going to church helped too today and lunch was great! We went to Panera's and I love going there, I have been going there a lot since I have more time and still off from the job at the college.

The sun is out and shining right now which is great, I have been thinking of New Year's resolutions and I hope to stick to them. I usually don't and I'm sure there are other people who don't stick to their resolution either or at least not all year.

So I do work my 2nd job today which is good because I have bills to pay and I still need to pay my phone bill which is due later this week. I try to get ahead on that and the wifi bill. As long as you can get ahead, its a great feeling.

Today brought joy in my life and you may think that it's a small joy but to me it is a big joy because I didn't enjoy the holidays and I have been cooped up in a house which is not fun. Yes it's my decision to stay home and not go out, family was stressful this year and it's the first time I have been bah humbug on Christmas Day. I din't even go to Christmas Eve mass at church, that is how stressed out I was.

Also, I am sure a lot of you are aware of this already but I wanted to share that you can earn money back using your card, my bank and many other banks other cash back ( a certain %) if you use your card. This is why I have been going to Panera's a lot and I did go to five guys.

Haven't been to Five Guys in a very long time and boy do I miss going there. Also I don't have a lot of money because of Christmas presents and bills. This next check I am planning to put towards the phone bill and hopefully get an extended warranty on my computer.

I may not post on New Years Day but if I put down my New Years resolution I will share them with you.

For now I am going to relax, find a snack and watch some stuff on Hulu. Have a great Sunday.

Still Stressed

Why am I so stressed?!?!?!

Being off from one job is great but it sucks too. I have no life, no one wants to hang out and the one person I vent to doesn't care and has not looked at my message that I sent! If that person messaged me I would have looked at it!!!

Whatever, I'm done trying and venting to people, if they don't care or take the time to read a message then I won't waste any more time in messaging them.

Today already sucks, I have been awake since 5am because my niece was up at that time, I feel like I haven't slept a whole lot and I'm frustrated! I hate feeling like this and honestly I think I need to disappear because no one gives a fuck if I am ok.

So, for now I may not post fro awhile, I can't make private entries on this blog which is ok, I just may not post a lot.

I am waiting for a package today then maybe going out for a bit, then need to stop at Walmart to get more hay for the guinea pigs. I also need to clean out there cage but I am waiting because my gramp is going to the dump and we don't have any empty trash cans so I will clean them out later today.

That is it for now, I don't plan to post later but I won't make any promises either.

Stress

I'm a little stressed out right now and I don't want to explain why either. I can say the weather in my town is crappy, we are getting freezing rain and the roads are icy. Now I live in a valley so it can get extreme to nothing at all while the surround towns get worse than what my town gets.

Today is crappy and so far I have folded laundry and put a load in the washer and dryer. Guess it's laundry day and it's trash day too, need to get started ion that shortly, maybe after I post this.

My gramp is going to the dump tomorrow I think and why not get rid of trash? I can get it together and then bring it down tomorrow morning.

Not much is new with me, I am off from one job and working the other job full time which is nice. Work is the same and just trying to binge watch shows on Netflix and Hulu, may need something new soon. I do have movies on my iTunes account and shows on there too.

Been watching Home Improvement season 2, that show cracks me up! I used to watch it back in the 90's and watching it again is great. I do plan to get all the seasons but one season at a time. I'm working on saving money and it's not going great at the moment so it's a work in progress for now and I don't need another season of a show for awhile.

Maybe in January I will get a season of Home Improvement or Grimm, one at a time and I don't mind saving up for it either.

Oh, I started another 52 week money challenge since I withdrew the other money that I saved up to buy a MacBook Air and started all over again. It's great and I enjoy doing it, it makes me happy to put the money aside and I'm saving. That money challenge is going well so that is a positive at the moment.

I have music playing in the background and it's my top 25 most played songs which I love! I enjoy this play lists and it will tell you how much I have listened to these songs.

Okay, I think I will get trash going and maybe I will de-stress from it. I might post later but may not so not making any promises on that.

If you are getting snow, rain,ice or any bad weather please be safe when driving.

Day After Christmas Also Known As Boxing Day

Well, I have never been that bah humbug for Christmas! I din't want any gifts, didn't want family over and didn't want to celebrate.

My mom thinks she knows why I was like that but she doesn't and honestly, it's none of her business. I don't care what she had going on or whatever temper tantrums she wanted throw, I won't put up with her bull sh*t.

Anyways family came over yesterday, I didn't open any gifts that my mom Brough only because she never thinks of what I would like or can I use it. She always gets gifts for me that I can't use and her way of thinking is so off I just put the gifts aside.

So my holiday was not fun and I finally relaxed after dinner. Everyone left and I sat down and relaxed and had roast beef for dinner.

Not much is new and its the day after Christmas and the sun is stillest which is great! I am home today and no I am not shopping because the stores will be crowded. I'm sure there are great deals out there but I am saving money and not shopping because I don't need anything.

For now I am still relaxing, going to watch a movie and I did some coloring because my aunt and uncle got me a coloring book that is supposed to help you relax and it has verses in it from he bible. Yes I go to church and have been going for over a year. I started coloring in it today, a way to keep me off my phone.

The iPhone can now track your screen time which is good and you can set limits too. I am trying to stay off the phone and coloring is a good way to stay off a phone.

I may post later but not sure what will happen.

Christmas Eve Part 1

Today is my last day of posting before tomorrow happens. I want to concentrate on family even though they can drive me crazy, I want to spend time with them.

Not much is new from yesterday, I'm stressed out right now and it's not good for me. I don't like being stressed and with family coming over, it won't go away.

My grandfather finally brought the tree up, its decorated from last year and looks like crap but that is how he does it, won't take the decorations off or anything so it looks bare.

This holiday is not going so well and I don't think it will get any better, for now I am just trying to relax and maybe take a nap. I don't have any plans for today or tonight and tomorrow is just tomorrow.

I cleaned out the guinea pig cage last night and the girls are resting and had there nails clipped so they are happy. They are relaxing right now and I am very tired so I should do the same.

I may post again tonight before bed.

Sunday

Normally I wouldn't post today because it's church day for me and to spend time with family.

So I will keep this short today.

At church today we talked about the birth of Jesus and re-created how he was born, this means volunteers are needed to play parts. I didn't go up but I enjoyed watching it, and it reminded me to be thankful for what I have.

I have been stressed out and unhappy, not sure why I was unhappy but I was. I am doing better now and I got to see a friend yesterday which was nice.

Today is a day of reflection and working on being thankful, you can never be thankful enough for everything in life.

Thanks, for looking at my post and online journal. I am thankful that you take the I=time to read or even just look at what I write about.

What are you thankful for?

Update on Vacation

Hmmm....

Well my last post was about going on winter break from my. job at the college which is nice but I'm not adjusting as well as I thought I would. I have had some bad days where I am very miserable, want to be left alone and it was not fun.

The weather doesn't help much with getting darker earlier and with friends working when I am not. It's not easy adjusting, I have gone out to do errands but then I am home the rest of the day.

Maybe I am missing when I have to go into work like at the nursing home when I worked there. It got me out of the house and I got human interaction. Yes I get human interaction at home but not like when you are at work. Maybe that is what is causing me to be miserable.

So I am doing better, have a doctor's appointment tomorrow morning at 8am. Yes I like early appointments just to get them out of the way. So will help get my niece off to school then get ready myself and off to the appointment.

It is an annual checkup and I'm sure everything is going to be good.

Besides me being miserable, being home and trying to adjust to just one job, things are good. Not much else is new with me, trying to keep up to date on my review pages which is not always easy. I do need to do stuff for the review page after I am done writing this post.

I was watching Ghost Adventures on Hulu, I need more shows to binge watch, maybe rewatch old shows too. I work so much during semesters that I barely get an y time to watch any movie or show so when I am on break and my niece is at school I binge watch stuff.

Soon I will be back to doing my 5k races and I will be signing up for the Red Cap that is in February tomorrow. This means I need to start walking again, maybe outside? I do plan to go to the gym on Fridays but maybe it would be better t train outside unless its too cold.

That is my news for today, not sure when I will post again but I will try again before Sunday.

Winter Break!

Hello everyone! How are all of you?

I am doing great!

Good news is, I am on winter break from my job at the college for about 5 weeks. It will be nice to have some time off and I am hoping to catch up on a lot of shows and movies on Netflix.

I am still working my nursing job which will help me with my bills and this is why I work 2 jobs. I have aback up in case anything happens at the other job and I don't have kids so it's easy for me to work a lot.

It takes a lot out of you but it's good to have with a seasonal job but its also extra money and I need to save up. I am sure you have seen me write that before but with my car going into the shop, buying gifts and bills, I am pretty broke.

So I have started saving and I don't plan to spend too much between now and Christmas. It's not easy but I know I can do it.

Okay, that is all I have for now. I am going to go and relax for the rest of the night.

The Week in Review

Hello everyone!  How are you today? I hope you are well and in good spirits.

I titled this entry as "The Week in Review" because I am going to talk about my week and I don't remember when I last posted. Today is church day for me but I am ok with making this post.

So I guess start with Monday which was uneventful for me, I did work and and it was steady which is good. Tuesday was the same and so was Wednesday too, Thursday was not too. bad and it was pay day from one job so I could finish Christmas shopping.

Friday was my birthday and the day leading up to it, I was miserable! I get like this every 5 years because the older I get the more it sinks. in I won't be bale to have children. Its weird because no one said anything to me and I didn't see anything online to cause any of these feelings.

I hate feeling like this and it only lasts for a few days, I did vent to one friend and he was understanding about it and let me vent which I am grateful for.

So on Friday I did a little experiment, I took. my birthday off my Facebook profile to see who would remember my birthday. Just so you know, I didn't expect everyone to remember and I was trying to see if anyone that has known me a longtime would remember.

Well, not many people did remember. My older sister tagged me in a post, my brother messaged me and my friend said happy birthday to me. He did say he should have said it first thing in the morning but I was happy he wished me a happy birthday.

My aunt stopped by later on Friday to bring me a card. I don't need much or want much for my birthday or Christmas. A few other people did post after they saw my sisters post on facebook.

It wasn't until I made a post with a pic that people started saying Happy Birthday. So in conclusion I was right, people forgot and I know most people didn't know it which is okay but the people closest to me waited except family so I'm not sure how to take that. Either its a good thing or a bad thing.

All in all, I worked Friday so I didn't do much. My mom didn't even wish me a Happy Birthday, I'm used to that.

Saturday I had a lot to do which was yesterday. I had my photo taken for my church and their digital directory and I bought a few prints. I went to a craft fair and Walmart. The guniea pigs needed hay and wood shavings so I picked up that then went tot he craft fair.

The craft fair was nice and I bought 2 things and I didn't spend much then came home, forgot to pick up a book which I need to do today and Connie made me a cake which she dropped off yesterday. Its a lemon raspberry cake and it's beautiful and soooo yummy!!!

I took pics of the cake and one of my purchases so I will post those next week, I am working one job for 3 days then I am off for 5 weeks (college schedule) I do have my other job that I work and I can get 40 hours with them.

Okay I think I have talked enough, need to get ready for church since I am being picked up in an hour, just need to figure out what to wear is all and then out to lunch. Not sure where, most places are packed so may just go somewhere local.

Trying to Think of Things

Hello everyone!

I'm doing great for the most part, today I went to a craft fair which I love doing. You support local people and there crafts.  I bought some caramel, an apron that has pockets and A sign with a beautiful design on it. I will post pics later of what I got.

So I have been doing more posting on my Review page called Cassandra's Reviews. I now have a MacBook Air and I can connect my calendar to my phone and iPad, yes I own apple products and I am happy with them.

I have been putting in my calendar when to post and been posting more which is great and maybe I can grow my audience more. I'm certainly going to try too.

Now I need to make a schedule because I take off major holidays since I live in the America. When I look at where my audience is from, it shows other countries so I like to make sure people know when I will not be posting.

So I know I will not be posting on Christmas Day and not sure about New Years Day either. I don't mind smaller holidays like Valentine's Day, St. Patricks Day to post but the important ones will most likely be Memorial Day (to honor veterans who have served and are serving), 4th of July, Vetran's Day, Thanksgiving and Christmas Day.

I will have to think about New Years Day and eve. I don't do much on that holiday except I work for home healthcare.

Anyways, my day has been good and now I am watching The Santa Clause with Tim Allen in it and going to eat a salad. I'm not sure if I want to go back out again but I may because I need more soda since I drank all of what I had.

I also need to budget because I want to buy in bulk and I know I need toilet paper (sorry not sorry) and I can get more cleaning supplies and snacks. Its great buying in bulk and having it delivered tot he house plus I need to do some cleaning.

I worked on the bathroom for a bit today and maybe I will work on the stairs too before going back out. My grandfather went to the landfill and I sometimes say dump but it's the same thing. I wish I knew he was going because I would have gotten more trash together. Well there is next time too.

Tomorrow we are getting rain, overnight we are getting freezing rain which I am not looking forward too so that is why my grampa went today to the landfill.