Being Sick, Taking Time Off to Rest

Hello and good morning everyone!

I hope you are feeling better than me, I have a sinus infection which most people know already. My nose is swollen and it hurts but the good news is I have medicine and I have started taking it and hope it works well and that I won't have to go back to the doctor.

I am staying home from church today and I took the weekend off from streaming due to health reasons. It feels good to take some time off and I hate this sinus infection too.

Friday night I went to see Jeff Dunham live which was fun even with this infection, I had a great time with family. My niece didn't seem too interested in it and wanted to come home halfway through the show.

We got home late Friday night and we all went to bed right after getting home, which I was very tired. Yesterday I didn't go anywhere but the store to get medicine and came home. I watched some streamers on twitch and did some knitting but not a lot.

I even went to bed early last night which I usually stay up til about 11:30pm so when I go to bed early it's not normal and that means I am sick.

Today I am staying home, my nose really hurts and yes I took Tylenol to help with the pain for now. I am going to try and knit some today but will see what happens, I may not do anything today because of my nose.

I don't have much else to say, maybe I will update later in the week but will not make any promises. Just keep an eye out on posts if you would like too.

Thank you for reading my posts, much appreciated and hope everyone is having a great day/evening or night.

Lots to Share!

Good morning!!!

I am excited and have so much to share with all of you! I'm about to burst with all this news!

Well first is I streamed today! I woke up early which I didn't want to do but I did so why not stream? I only updated twitter and people still came even if they lurked. I made more progress on the shawl today which is great and it's going much better the second time around.

I took the shawl apart yesterday after messing up so I took it apart and re-wound the yarn into a yarn ball and started over again. yesterday I knitted for 4 hours! I did stop after because my hands were tired.




I enjoyed stream today, chatted with people, gained new followers and listened to my Enya playlist. It was a laid back stream and relaxing music. Also, I can add quotes when streaming!!! It's very exciting that I can do that.

In other news, I was asked to knit something for another twitch streamer and I am just waiting for the yarn to arrive so I can start knitting the blanket and I found a great pattern today! That will be my next project.

After taking a break from streaming and working on my mental health and now just streaming one day a week is really good for me. I streamed 2 days this week but honestly streaming one day works great for me.

I think I was putting too much pressure on myself to stream and burnt out, one day or two days of streaming work much better for me and I like it. If I could add another day in for streaming I would consider it. For now, I will be streaming one day a week.

I need to think of channel point rewards too, I disabled that on my stream channel because I didn't know what to add for rewards so I need to think of some rewards. One reward would be you can choose a color of yarn and I will knit with it to make a scarf for Warm Up America. Make a multi-color scarf.

I get to knit and people can choose colors, just need to get the yarn and no I won't go crazy on yarn shopping.

Work was good this week, I think I had one bad day maybe? I don't remember but the week went by and now the weekend is almost over. The good news about the jobs is I get to stay busy and I like it.

Yesterday I got my hair done but I also put more than 6 weeks in between color and cut so it felt great to get my hair done. Sometimes you need to treat yourself.

We did get snow where I live and the sun is shining at the moment. I will be working on the shawl today while doing laundry and figuring out what to make for my work lunch tomorrow.

I think I am missing stuff, it feels like I had more to say but nothing is coming to mind. If I think of it, I will write it down and save it for next Sunday.

I hope all of you have a great day wherever you are!

Sunny Sunday

Where to start?

it's sunny out and warm today, got rain and wind this morning before it warmed up and stopped training.

Not much is new, just working and staying busy. Streamed yesterday which went well.

that is all i have to say

Another Cold, Bitter Sunday

I did not write anything to copy and paste today which is ok.

Another Sunday and another weekly update but today is not going so great for me mentally. I'm not sure why I feel this way but it's how I am feeling and just trying to make it through the day.

The week went by fast and the weekend is almost over, it's cold and very windy outside today and I think we are getting snow maybe. I have not listened to the weather ort looked.

During the past week, I have felt left out of people's lives. I have also looked beyond that and try to turn that negative into a positive. It's not always easy and to be honest, I may need to take a day for myself and do what I want or watch some Netflix and get caught on shows I watch.

This past week has been good and had some bad times. I feel like I am not good enough for people or for one person. I could be overthinking all of this too. No matter how I try, I'm just never good enough and it sucks but I push through every day and still live.

I can tell you I do think I am better off 6 feet under. You may be thinking "what is she saying?" I do think that I would be better off 6 feet under and everyone would be better off without me around.

Most people never want me around and don't invite me out. Yes, this goes both ways, I have tried before with a friend but they think they know what is best for me. They never ask me what is going, don't communicate with me very often even though I do try.

It can be frustrating and it shouldn't matter if you are good at responding or not, at least respond with something and please don't assume you know everything about me either. That is frustrating when a friend tells me "they think I need space", you don't know what someone needs unless you ask them.

I shouldn't rant but needed to get that out.

Also, everyone does work and has lives outside of work or may just be busy so yes that is understandable and I take that into account.

I signed up to raise money for charity and was going to have a layout made but thought better not do it.

Before this post gets anymore sad, I am just going to end it here.

Hopefully, this week can bring hope and happiness to me and I will feel better. Thanks for reading.

A New Year

It’s a New Year! 

I’m not happy even though it’s a new year and I’m not sure why that is. I didn’t mind staying in last night because I had no plans to even go out but felt very neglected by people. It’s a happy/sad feeling for last night and today.

Not sure why I fell this way but I do. 

Well for 2020, I made goals instead of a new year’s resolution. There will be small goals, midway goals, and long term goals.

The small goals are to save extra money for the car payment to get ahead on that. I also want to buy a switch (maybe this month) depending on bills. I want to go to the gym on my days off.

The small goals are 1-5 months long, midway goals are June/July and long term goals are to be reached by December.

Hopefully, I can cross off all goals but it will be fun to see how far I get. I should start another 52-week money challenge! What is that you ask? 

The 52-week money challenge is to put money aside every week. For example; week 1 is $1, week 5 is $5 and so on. At the end of 52 weeks, you should have $1378.00 saved up. I will see if I can add an image so you can see what I am talking about.

I just googled 52-week money challenge and there are many out there, you can do $1 a week or do $5 a week if you want, do what you can afford. Put the money in the bank or get the app called “tip yourself”. I use this app to put money aside and it helped me save to get this Apple MacBook Air which took a year of saving to get.

Also, I want to lose some weight and be healthier mentally and physically so that will be a big challenge for me. I did weigh myself and gained almost 2lbs from last week but it’s ok, today is a new day to start over.

I will update not he healthier journey and let you folks know how it’s going. I may update more than once a week or I will try to keep it to once a week.

Alright, I have rambled on long enough, will try to update once a week. If you see my post says “Wednesday, Friday, or any other day” I write in my notes app then copy and paste. This way you can see my progress on how I am feeling mentally and how I am doing in general.

Thank you for taking the time to read about my life, journey and I hope you have a beautiful day today. I need to do laundry, lol.

I love you all!