Another Cold, Bitter Sunday

I did not write anything to copy and paste today which is ok.

Another Sunday and another weekly update but today is not going so great for me mentally. I'm not sure why I feel this way but it's how I am feeling and just trying to make it through the day.

The week went by fast and the weekend is almost over, it's cold and very windy outside today and I think we are getting snow maybe. I have not listened to the weather ort looked.

During the past week, I have felt left out of people's lives. I have also looked beyond that and try to turn that negative into a positive. It's not always easy and to be honest, I may need to take a day for myself and do what I want or watch some Netflix and get caught on shows I watch.

This past week has been good and had some bad times. I feel like I am not good enough for people or for one person. I could be overthinking all of this too. No matter how I try, I'm just never good enough and it sucks but I push through every day and still live.

I can tell you I do think I am better off 6 feet under. You may be thinking "what is she saying?" I do think that I would be better off 6 feet under and everyone would be better off without me around.

Most people never want me around and don't invite me out. Yes, this goes both ways, I have tried before with a friend but they think they know what is best for me. They never ask me what is going, don't communicate with me very often even though I do try.

It can be frustrating and it shouldn't matter if you are good at responding or not, at least respond with something and please don't assume you know everything about me either. That is frustrating when a friend tells me "they think I need space", you don't know what someone needs unless you ask them.

I shouldn't rant but needed to get that out.

Also, everyone does work and has lives outside of work or may just be busy so yes that is understandable and I take that into account.

I signed up to raise money for charity and was going to have a layout made but thought better not do it.

Before this post gets anymore sad, I am just going to end it here.

Hopefully, this week can bring hope and happiness to me and I will feel better. Thanks for reading.