Last Week, Found Yarn

It's my last week before my seasonal job starts but I'm enjoying my time. Not much is new, just taking time for my mental health and have been knitting.

Went to a family birthday on Saturday which was fun, that is the most talking I have done at a family function and where the party was, it was peaceful and quiet and beautiful. I hope to go back on a Saturday to just sit and relax.

In other news I found some beautiful orange yarn at Walmart. It's cheaper there than it is at JoAnn's but I still need to go to JoAnn's to get supplies but the yarn will be my first stop. I plan to make a hat and scarf and just want one more skein of yarn to be safe.

The hat and scarf should take 225 yards of yarn which is in on skein but just want to be safe for now.
The colors make me think of fall and halloween.

I don't have much else to say, just relaxing and knitting and really doing nothing else. Did laundry yesterday and need to get it folded, family is good and I'm doing great! Taking time for me and my mental health has been very good for me.

So I hope to update later this week but will see, have a great Wednesday!

Rough Week, Doing Better

Even though I recently posted an entry, it feels like it has been longer since the last post. 

From Monday to today, it has been rough. I have made it through and I went for a walk too which a friend suggested.

My mind didn’t turn off but I saw a few things in a different light which is good.

Also I used the Zombie Run app which I walk and not run, I used the Under Armour app and my Apple Watch to log my walk today.

Yes I use a lot of apps but it’s fun and one app connects to MyFitnesPal app, I use Apple products a lot so that’s why I track with Apple and the Zombie Run app is for fun.

Hoping to get out tomorrow morning for a quick walk, maybe when I wake up since I don’t have to be at work til 9am.

So after thinking and walking, I feel much better. I just need to work on my mental health, be more positive and I think going out for walks will help.

So for now, I will concentrate on me and family. I need to get better before I can do much else plus knit a sock.

Have a great night everyone!

Break and Lunch

Today is Tuesday! I’m sure you know that but I wanted to say it. 

It’s lunch time and taking a break, since last Friday I decided to not stream anymore and talked to a few guys about it.

They are being very supportive and one gave me great advice. He said just step back and do what makes me happy. He is right, I’m worrying too much of what one person thinks I need for my channel and if I want something I should be able to have it regardless if I am affiliated or not!

So I’m stepping back for a bit and taking time for me which I haven’t done and yesterday I felt great!

Not sure when I will stream again but I’m taking a break. One of my mods doesn’t care at all about me growing my channel (it’s my theory) and makes her channel and other people’s channels look better.

I’m usually chopped liver but not anymore, I will do it myself if I have too! I don’t care and I am going to make my channel awesome!

Not Feeling TGIF

It’s Friday and as much as I want to say TGIF, it’s not for me. 

I was doing good until family stopped by and I can never do anything right when it comes to family and it brings me down a lot. I just want to cry and sometimes think my family would be better off without me around.

It’s hard for me when family doesn’t tell me anything or doesn’t talk to me then when o do something it’s never right.

I always feel very little a lot and my self esteem is low and I feel like I never deserve anything good in life. Guess it’s what I have to get used too.

Other than me feeling like a loser, I registered my car which was cheaper than I expected but have a rough estimate for the next time I register.

Now to save up for the floor mats, trunk liner and snow tires plus inspection later down the road.

I may not be able to go to Boston next Saturday either as much as I want too I think it would be best if I stay home. I can always knit and watch movies that day.

So going to do some knitting and may stream later but will see.

Knitting Today

Wow! It’s August and July flew by fast but when you knit like me, the days blur together.

Things are good, making progress on projects today and started some already. The heel part of the sock is done and now to try and get further along with that, work on scarves and try more of the butterfly stitch.

Of course I will take breaks in between to stretch, eat, run errands and do laundry. I’m hoping to get further along with all projects that I have started and update here as well as twitter and my discord.

I also don’t write in here a lot so trying to do more. The socks are a arrow head pattern and doing a few cable stitch scarves. 

Not much else is new, just relaxing today and trying to not fall asleep even though I got plenty of sleep last night.

So I need to check laundry and take a short break but I hope all of you have a great Thursday!

Here is the sock I am working on:

You can’t see the arrow head design but I am doing good for my first time on socks.