Been sick and good

Sorry for not being around, been sick and then been busy.

Holidays were okay and really just been busy taking care of me niece since she is on school break.

Got sick and had a high fever which I normally don't get fevers that are 101.3 degrees. I am doing much better now.

Started a video blog/journey to see how much I change in a year. It started the day after Christmas and hoping to see a change next year.

The videos are up on YouTube and I try to keep them under 5 minutes so I don't take up too much of your time. 

Life is good at the moment and I'm happy. Really tired from shoveling snow but it's a good workout.

Still canceled two of my 4 planned trips because I really need to save money. It sucks but saving is more important so it's okay and hopefully in 2017 I can do those 2 trips I am going to miss in 2016.

Okay, hopefully I can post again later but don't want to make guarantees so let's look forward to more posting.

Video logs and being a better person

I have been struggling a lot for awhile now and I need to take a step back to become a better person.  I am hoping to be better mentally and physically in a year. I will still post stuff and only do promo posts for books.

I need to work on me and I know this so I am going to take along hard look at who I am.

I may do a few reviews here and there but I won't do as much like I did before. Also I am keeping a video log on youtube and hope to see a great outcome in one year.

Maybe I will inspire someone, hoping to make someones day brighter by doing this.

Life, tattoos,faling

Hello to everyone out there.

I feel like it has been a long time since my last post but it may not be that long. So  I am on vacation from he college and working home health care. I did reapply to the nursing home that I quit in October.

I found out that doing extra hours for education for my LNA is not paid which sucks and makes me unhappy and this is why I am going back to the nursing home.

Not much is new but I can tell you I slipped on the back stairs at my house and fell but I am okay and nothing is broken. I fell down about 6 steps so I am sure that I will have a bruise on my butt cheek.
 
My tattoo is healing very well and need to make an appointment for my arm tattoo. Looking forward to another tattoo but the healing process sucks. I pay for it and get it so it is worth it.

Not much else is new, just working and been staying home. Christmas shopping is all done and I just need to wrap the presents.

I will try to update more in here, I just don't do anything besides work except I have been reading a book. Was offered an ARC and I am just about halfway through. Hoping to finish it this week and put up some more reviews.

Now to go to bed and get some sleep. Have a good night.

Koi Fish Tattoo

I have decided on another tattoo besides my elemental dragons. I want  to get a koi fish on my bicep where my air and water dragon connect. It will be painful but I think it will be beautiful! Maybe I will get the owner at the tattoo shop I go to  do it for me, he draws really great koi fish.

More later

Life, Thrive, Gram

Well life has been good and better! I have had a few ups and downs but mostly life has been good. My gram is still with us which makes me happy but sad to see her jut laying around and doing nothing.

She is 75 years old and I didn't think she would make it to her 75th birthday but I am happy that I still get time with her.

Work is winding down at the college and this is the last week we are opened then we go on winter break. I am ready for a break again.

I am a thriver and if you are wondering what I am talking about I will explain.

Thrive is like a big vitamin pill. You take 2 capsules in the morning on a empty stomach then take a shake 40 minutes later and put on a derma fusion technology patch and you are all set for the day. It's easy as 1,2,3 and you are done!

I love it and I love how easy it is. I don't drink energy drinks anymore plus I don't need extra vitamins and I feel more energized in the morning and I feel better about my health.

Thrive has changed me and I have been on it for 3 weeks. I would suggest this to friends, family and anyone who is trying to be healthier or wants to add better nutrition into your lifestyle.

You can ask me how today or you can look at the site. I can send you a link and you can just look, you don't have to buy and you can watch the stories of other people who love this product!

Some Good News

I  may become a promoter fro Thrive but I would have to have people sign up under me and I think I would have to make $800, I don't have all the details yet but going to talk to Tina who I sogned up under.

I want to promote Thrive and yes I have a blog for it, not sure who would sign up under me so I am not very positive for it but I will see what Tina tells me.

It's har because I don't know who to sell too because I know none of my family would buy from me and I know my friends wouldn't buy from me either. I have friends that are cheap and ther is nothing wrong with that.

I like a good deal too but I would promote this daily because Thrive is WORTH it! I spend about $115 a month plus if I have extra money I stock up. This way I get my lifestyle pack plus DFT patches and I'm set for awhile.

So I am hoping to be a promoter but I'm not ure what would happen if you don't get the 800, hmmmm.....

Will post more later.

Today and no Buffalo Wild Wings, That's OK

Today is a good day o far, I worked and picked up my chocolate dipped strawberries which I ate all of them! I canceled my plans for today to go to Buffalo Wild Wings because everyone is broke.

I'm okay with canceling it and I am staying home and relaxing. I would love to eat at Buffalo Wild Wings but if everyone is broke then we shouldn't be going. Everyone has money to do other things but say they are broke and I don't understand how you are broke if you can afford to do other stuff?

This is why I canceled Buffalo Wild Wings. Kevin was willing to do something with me today to celebrate my birthday but I said no. I appreciate that he wanted to hang out but I decided not to do anything today.

I am relaxing and yes people may not like my decisions but I made them based on what I was told and if you are broke then don't go posting about stuff you supposedly can't afford and it doesn't matter how much it cost, what matters is that you are able to afford stuff but I feel like you are lying to me just to get out of celebrating my birthday only because it's December.

It's how I feel and I'm okay with staying home today, I wanted to do Chinese food but may skip that since I bought ice cream yesterday. I will figure it out later and just relax for now.

So it's NCIS and just getting used to my new computer. Still working on how it works but I do love it!

Computer and home

I have a computer!!!

I think I made a post about this yesterday. So I am using it now of course and just need to get used to microsoft since its a nextbook.

I am home for a bit at the moment before job #2 today and it's nice to be home.

Working and hopefully getting out early tonight but will see. So not much else is new, just relaxing and figuring life out.

More later

Wow! Hello Out There

Hi everyone! 

It really has been awhile since I wrote in here or at least it feels like it.

Not much is new, I have been working like I always do. I have been on an emotional roller coaster and I don't think it's stopping anytime soon.

It's hard when you have a family member who is actively dieing which sucks.

I spent Thanksgiving with family and it was beautiful and wonderful. I love being with family on a holiday no matter what.

I have 2 weeks left for my job at the college which is nice because I'm ready for a break.

Also need to make a date for my next tattoo. I also canceled my birthday plans for next Saturday too.

Everyone says they are broke, so why commit to go out of town for food if you have no money? Plus I know people have bills and rent to pay.

I decided it would be better for me to stay home and just celebrate on my own like I always do. 

Asked a coworker to make me a cake and not sure if she will remember to make it because she was making wreaths and center pieces to sell.

This is what I don't like about December with friends or coworkers. I love everyone but everyone forgets my birthday well except a very few. 

It sucks then some people combine Christmas gifts with birthday gifts and I don't like that.

If everyone else can be recognized on their birthday day, so should I! 

So I am staying home next weekend and I'm okay with that, maybe order Chinese to splurge. Will figure that out next week.

Not much else new, just work and staying busy. Car was inspected and registered so that is all set :)

Not much else to say or write. So I'm going to watch Shrek and then bed. I'm working home healthcare tomorrow and have the rest of the day off.

Life, Gram and computer

Hey everyone,

Not much new with me, stressed out and just doing enough to get by. My gram is dying and it's hard because I don't want her to leave but I don't want her to suffer. Today we had a scare and before I left the hospital she was doing much better.

So in other news, I need a new computer because the one I am using now has the wifi button won't work. I have had it for 6 years and the rest of it works but I like to be upstairs using my computer so I am buying a new one next week.

Not much else is new but will try to post more later.

Thrive, Work

I went tot he gym today!!!!

Yes I had to put that there. I have been slacking on my gym for over a week but I went today and it felt damn good to be back at it! I will be getting back on my schedule for the gym too.

Also I didn't know you can get jet lag from a 1 hour time difference and have been readjusting.

Work has been good and have been picking up one extra shift a week since getting back from Minnesota. It's extra money so I am not complaining.

My mood has been up and down but getting back on track which is good. Still having some doubt in myself and it's hard to be postive when other people seem much better than me, long story for a rainy day.

Worked extra tonight and when I got home I saw I had a box. Couldn't remember what I ordered but when I looked at it I knew if was my DFT patched from Thrive.

Met a lady that is a thrive promoter when I was in Minnesota and decided to try it out. I only could afford the patch and hoping to see a difference but will see what happens.

Usually I do the It Works stuff but feel that it is not working lately, maybe my body chemistry is off kilter.

Anyways, going to bed soon because I have had a long day and need rest.

Goodnight

Home, tired, halloween

So tired but don't want to fall asleep this early! It's 7:38pm my time and I think with coming home from vacation and right back into work has exhausted me. Can you get jet lag from a 1 hour time difference?

I know, dumb question but I have been very tired since coming home. I loved going to my first book event and had a great time. It was fun and I got to know a lot of people and make new friends too.

So now I am relaxing and will be taking a shower soon, going to get caught up on reviews and promos for my review page.

Working tomorrow morning and hope to hang with a friend tomorrow night. It's halloween tomorrow and no I am not dressing up but I did that at the book event I went to. It was fun.

Off to shower now, I will try and post tomorrow after work and posting stuff for the review page plus go through eamils too. I have so many to look at.

Calm Before the Storm: Episode 5 by Larissa Ione

 Welcome to Storm, Texas, where passion runs hot, desire runs deep, and secrets have the power to destroy...

Nestled among rolling hills and painted with vibrant wildflowers, the bucolic town of Storm, Texas, seems like nothing short of perfection.

But there are secrets beneath the facade. Dark secrets.  Powerful secrets. The kind that can destroy lives and tear families apart.  The kind that can cut through a town like a tempest, leaving jealousy and destruction in its wake, along with shattered hopes and broken dreams. All it takes is one little thing to shatter that polish.

Reading like an on-going drama in the tradition of classic day and night-time soap operas like Dallas, Dynasty, and All My Children,Rising Storm is full of scandal, deceit, romance, passion, and secrets.

With 1001 Dark Nights as the “producer,” Julie Kenner and Dee Davis use a television model with each week building on the last to create a storyline that fulfills the promise of a drama-filled soap opera. Joining Kenner and Davis in the “writer’s room” is an incredible group of New York Times bestselling authors such as Lexi Blake, Elisabeth Naughton, Larissa Ione, Rebecca Zanetti and Lisa Mondello who have brought their vision of Storm to life.

A serial soap opera containing eight episodes in season one, the season premiere of Rising Storm, TEMPEST RISING, debuted September 24^th with each subsequent episode releasing consecutively this fall.

So get ready.  The storm is coming.

About CALM BEFORE THE STORM: Episode 5 of the Rising Storm Series

Secrets, Sex and Scandals …

Welcome to Storm, Texas, where passion runs hot, desire runs deep, and secrets have the power to destroy…  Get ready.  The storm is coming.

Marcus Alvarez fled Storm when his father’s drinking drove him over the edge. With his mother and sisters in crisis, Marcus is forced to return to the town he thought he’d left behind. But it is his attraction to a very grown up Brittany Rush that just might be enough to guarantee that he stays.

Experience Rising Storm Here…

Rising Storm Episode 1 (Sept. 24): Julie Kenner’s Tempest RisingAmazon ** iBooks **Barnes and Noble **GooglePlay

Rising Storm Episode 2 (Oct. 1): Lexi Blake’s White LightningAmazon ** iBooks **Barnes and Noble **GooglePlay

Rising Storm Episode 3 (Oct. 8): Elisabeth Naughton’s CrosswindsAmazon ** iBooks **Barnes and Noble **GooglePlay

Rising Storm Episode 4 (Oct. 15): Jennifer Probst’s Dance in the WindAmazon **iBooks **Barnes and Noble **GooglePlay

Rising Storm Episode 5 (Oct. 22): Larissa Ione’s Calm Before the StormAmazon ** iBooks ** Barnes and Noble **GooglePlay

Rising Storm Episode 6 (Oct. 29): Rebecca Zanetti’s Take the StormAmazon **iBooks ** Barnes and Noble **GooglePlay

Rising Storm Episode 7 (Nov. 5): Lisa Mondello’sWeather the StormAmazon ** iBooks **GooglePlay

Rising Storm Episode 8 (Nov. 12): Dee Davis’s Thunder RollsAmazon ** iBooks **GooglePlay

About Larissa Ione:

Larissa Ione is a New York Times and USA Today bestselling author. An Air Force veteran, she traded in a career as a meteorologist to pursue her passion of writing. She now spends her days in pajamas with her computer, strong coffee, and supernatural worlds. She believes in celebrating everything, and would never be caught without a bottle of Champagne chilling in the fridge…just in case. She currently lives in Wisconsin with her U.S. Coast Guard husband, her teenage son, a rescue cat named Vegas, and her very own hellhound, a King Shepherd named Hexe.

Rising StormWebsite | Facebook |Twitter | 1001 Dark Nights | Rising Storm on Goodreads

Minnesota!

Hey everyone!

I am on vacation and I am super excited!!! I am attending my first book even and I am in Minnesota. My hotel is awesome plus super classy but it is connected to Mall of America!!!!

I'm happy I did this because I have been working a lot and it's nice to get away.

I did travel by myself but I am happy I met 3 amazing women last night and went to Bubba Gump Shrimp Copmay resturauny last night! I never go out when I am home so last night was a blast. Ah..... man bun aka David. Good looking guy and I asked aboiut him, lol.

It was so much fun, now today I am shopping since registartion is at 2pm and going to message Leagh later. She is one awesome chick!

I even went to the gym and did my workout today, its a small gym in the hotel but its there and I will use it! I also love this place and I will come back. I don't think I could go more than a year without seeing Leagh.

Anyways wanted to post in here since I haven't and now I am going to finish getting ready check out the mall and maybe relax before registration.

More later.

Great News and MBLU!

Hello to everyone!

I am a busy person but I wouldn't have it any other way. I'm getting ready for my trip to Minnesota and I am excited!!!!

I do need to start packing which I am going to after I update here first.

Good news, I got my shirts and will post pics seperately. I also got my business cards in the mail and I LOVE the way they turned out!! Double sided and they look great! Going to switch my cover photo on facebook and put it on that one.

I am ready for MBLU 2015! I'm also happy to be going on a vacation and I am getting caught up on promo/review posts for the review page and blog. I have a lot of reviews to do so I will be reading a lot too this week.

My friend Jen is at AAC (Another Anime Con) and I wanted to hangout with her but she is away and I get to post stuff on my review page so it's okay that she is not in town. I will see her soon before I leave.

The review page is doing well and I am happy with it plus I want to do a giveaway when I reach 500 likes so some of the books I pick up from the convention will be in the giveaway.

I don't have much bad news, It Works website sucked last night and I got frustrated so I just wanted to forget about it and I went to bed.

Everything else is great and I am happy. I'm not a part of Alpha Book Club anymore which is okay and I can have more time for my review page. I am in one other review group and hope to make that group grow.

So that is my news for now, I need to start packing plus shower and start reading more books, I work all day tomorrow.

More later and will get the pics up soon.

Life, business, backpack

Life in general has been good. I need to start posting for the "Foster an Author" week. I will get to that after I am done writing here.

I ordered a backpack for my book convention and ordered business cards too.

Still lots to do and now to update the review page. More later

Gym and sleep

I am tired but it's from going to the gym at 5am today. Yes I got up at 5am and went to the gym.

I'm happy I went and I feel great! 

It sucks to get up that early but it's the only time I have on Monday and Tuesday to go to the gym.

With work from 8am to 730p or later I would rather go early in the morning.

My sleep is doing better and I'm happy with that. I'm taking Confianza by It Works and it does work.

It's a stress reliever and helps you sleep better. I have taken it for 2 days now and I like it.

Now to help my gramps and then get to work.

IS it a Sign?

Well I think there is something telling me not to sign up and become a distributor. I'm not sure what is going on and why a comment I made was deleted. Not sure who or what deleted my comment but oh well.

I want to be a distributor for It Works! They have great products that I use and would love to get other people on the band wagon with it. They are vegan friendly products and are great for making you healthier.

So not sure how to take it but going to think on it some more and figure out what I want to do.

In other news, I get to cosplay at the book event I am going to!!! Super excited for that and need to get everything in one spot for that costume. I leave in a couple weeks and I am excited to be going. Never been to Minnesota.

So for now I am relaxing and tomorrow I am going to get caught up on posts and emails. :)

Goodnight

It Works! facebook page

I made an It Works! facebook page because I want to sell this product. It is all natural and radical free products that I have tried.

My fave is Greens on the Go. It gives you energy and 8 servings of fruits and vegetables. I take it about 1030am and I have energy all day and I a m not tired! I love it because it helps me be healthy and detoxify's my system and I still work 2 jobs with energy.

Also the fat fighters are AWESOME!!!!

I bought a bottle for $23 and I saw on my scale my body fat went down. You take 2 pills after your largest meal and it will absorb the bad fat. It works and I have tried and love it!

They sell products for face, skin and health. You can try a wrap too if you want or become a loyal customer!

www.faceboo.com/ItWorksCassieBrooker

Ask me how today.

day off? really?

It's my day off and I have no idea what to do. It's weird because I am used to doing something and I am home doing nothing. Well I wrote a review and need to figure out another review.

I have not done much else. I feel like I should be doing something else but I don't know what I should do.

I have music playing and I am chatting online with a friend on facebook which is nice plus I haven't talked to her since August and I get to see her next month at a book event I am going too!

Okay I may be posting a lot because I have no idea what to do.

Thank you for reading my ramblings today, they may get interesting.

sick and relaxing

I am still sick and it sucks!

I have today completely off and I am staying home and relaxing. I am taking meds to feel better and going to be posting promo stuff for indie authors.

I din't sleep in but I went to bed early which is rare but I had a bad migrane last night and I just want to sleep.

Not much is new, just getting ready for my vacation next month and I need money aside for the hotel. That is what is scaring me the most. I am working overtime to help pay for it and I am getting shirts made up with my review page logo too.

I am looking forward to this trip and I am happy to be going. Let's hope I have enough money to pay for everything which I am bad at saving.

I guess after I need to start saving for my next book events. Better to have the money aside now and not worry about it. Also saving for new tattoos too.

Okay more later

Sick

Well since I have been working a lot I think I made myself sick. Haven't had a lot of time tor est in between working so it sucks and now I am on the verge of a sinus infection.

I hate sinus infections so getting some meds to help with it and kick it's butt. I talked to a friend a week ago I think or last week and on Friday I removed a phone line from my phone plan so my bill will be less and won't be so high.

I have learned my lesson on adding people to a phone plan, never do it again!!!

Anyways, trying to get caught up on stuff and get back into the swing of things with my review groups. I needed to time away and I think that was the best thing for me. I was really stressed out and just needed time away.

Making plans to go to Buffalo Wild Wings in December for my birthday and we would go on a day that the Bruins are playing! Yes I want to go back for a bruins game.

Also the Bruins started their season and I was listening to the game last night but missed the OT final shot that put the Bruins ahead and won the game! I think I fell asleep since I have been sick and all I want to do is sleep.

So going to go and shower then maybe bed early. Will try to update more.

Sick and catching up

Hey everyone!

I have been sick and working a lot of hours so I have really been MIA.

Hoping to write more in here and get back on track too.

Things are going well besides a cough, my review blog got a few comments and I am excited about it! I just replied to the comments now that I have seen them. I just need to be better about comments.

Not much is new with me, just working a lot and trying to get more reading done.

Going to bed soon so I will keep this short. Will try and post more tomorrow

Color Run Night 5K

It has been awhile since I last posted in here.

I have good news!

I did a 5k Color Run last night with Megan and Adrian. It was a lot of fun and it was glow in the dark too! This race was in Loudon, NH at the race track where they do races for Nascar (I think). I have never been there so this was a first for me.

Adrian drove and I carpooled with him and Megan. I was happy to see them and it was good to get out of Keene for a bit.

We started about 720pm and I finished at 830pm so I didn't do too bad and ran on ly 0.25 miles and walked the rest of the way.

This run is for anyone and you can walk, run or skip and it's designed to have fun no matter what.

After we were done we changed and left to get food. Megan gave me the choice of Unos or Buffalo Wild Wings and I chose Buffalo Wild Wings. We went to Concord and I will say I was impressed with the place.

I am a big hockey fan but not with other sports. I would go here just for the food and just to watch sports! The food was delicious and I brought home a bottle of Bourbon Honey Mustard sauce. I will be using that soon.

So last night was a lot of fun! I had a wonderful time and enjoyed all of it. I did fall asleep on the way home and when I got into bed, I fell asleep right away.

I am out of shape but I am happy I signed up for this run.

Now onto my next adventure, Minnesota in October.

My life, my way, leave if you don't like it!!!

Well I have been up and down this week, mostly up. I am done caring what others think and if they don't invite me out that is fine. I'm done trying to be what you want me to be, I'm done trying to fit in and I'm done just trying,

I am going to do what I want, post what I want and do what I want and don't care what yo u think or say! It's my life and I am going to live it!

Now I feel much better, work went well this week at the college and it's nice to be back plus I picked up some extra hours this weekend so I can save more money. Tomorrow will be a long day but that is okay and Local Day is coming up at work soon too.

Things at home are good, my grampa is going to get his other hip replaced and I am glad it is before my vacation next month.

I have 46 more days!!!!

It is coming fast and then it will be here before I know it. I am looking forward to traveling and am excited to be going to Minnesota too.

Not much else to say, just going to check email, pay bills, schedule posts and just relax before tomorrow.

Greens on The Go

Hey everyone!!!

Wow, I am about and tried Greens On The Go by ItWorks! They specialize in all natural ingrediants and these are radical free too. The greens have:

• Detoxify, alkalize, and promote pH balance within the body
• Acidity-fighting magnesium and potassium blend
• Cutting-edge probiotic support for digestive health
• 38 herbs and nutrient-rich superfoods
• Multiple servings of fruits and vegetables in every packet
• Free radical-fighting antioxidants
• Great-tasting berry flavor      

The taste is not very berry tasting but its not awful either. I am going to see if there is a difference in 30 days.

I do feel like I have more energy now then 20 minutes ago.  

College is back

Well the college freshman are here and I am back at the cafeteria working. My feet are throbbing and my new work shoes are on back order! I will survive.

Anyways glad to be back and to see everyone back at work. We have new people too so it looks like a good semester.

I am tired form working such along day but it's okay and I will sleep good tonight.

Been down alittle today and I know why just not sure if I want to post why. Anyways, have a few things coming up plus listening to FitRadio is helping me relax.

Not much is new with me, just working, reading and being home after work. I want to go out to Longhorn for dinner but it would just be me. So I guess I won't go, I also want a birthday cake for my birthday but no one will probably make it but will see.

The Bruins schedule is up and they have a game on my birthday! I so want to go but who would go with me? Probably no one, guess I may not go.

Anyways just got done checking email, putting stuff into google calender and now to relax then bed.

Mini Chap Sticks

I signed up recently to sponsor an event and will be doing mini chap sticks for 200 VIP bags. I contacted a company and just waiting to hear back. This will cost about $200. All that for 200 chap sticks, my review logo on it and chap stick for people.

Mini chap stick or chap stick is a great idea and I wanted people to be able to use something. I got the idea from my author/friend Katie Larsen. She gave me a mini chap stick and it had her logo on it.

So yes she inspired me and I think it is a great idea.

I emailed the the person I have been chatting with because I wanted to make sure chap stick was OK. I emailed them again to see when they need the swag by and if I should have the chap stick mailed to me first then mail it to them.

I also have been checking my GMail account to make sure I am on top of promoting and reviewing. I have a lot of emails in that account but working on getting it smaller.

So much to do today, but I get to relax and do my LNA homework plus read and review. Time to get more done.

The Ex won't answer his phone

So I have been posting positive posts this week and I am going to write about what I want. I don't care who reads it, if it offends please move on. I am done pleasing other people.

I have been trying to get a hold of my ex all week, he never answers his phone, doesn't answer texts. I finally gave in and reached out to a friend who I haven't been talking to much lately but figured she would know where he was.

Supposedly he was in the hospital for getting stung 37 times, I doubt he got stung that many times and he does exagerate stuff a lot! So he is in Vermont at his moms.

He supposedly doesn't get reception and I know he does because I have been there and I had reception. I am just done with this sharing a phone bill, I don't care if I have to pay his phone off and just get him off the bill! I will do it.

I will never do this again!!!

I can't keep paying $200 a month and him not paying his half, he has been late on his half or makes payments and doesn't tell me. He doesn't even have a job!

So I am done, I am not doing this anymore and when I separate the phones I will tell him to never speak to me again! I don't need to talk to him for anything anymore.

Feeling down but still doing good

Feeling down and not sure what it is. I think because I was home all day today after working home health care and I usually do a lot of stuff. Today I didn't do much but got some LNA homework done so that is a plus.

I have been slacking on exercise and healthy eating but I am going to change that! Hopefully I will get a good pay check tomorrow and can get some food, next week I am back tot he college.

I haven't been out but I am also broke so I really try to stay in and not spend money. I would like to see people but no one contacts me and I don't contact them. It's okay with me. If both parties don't put in the effort then there should be nothing.

I believe that and relation (dating/friendship) is always 50/50 and if one person is not putting in effort why should the other party put in effort. I have been thinking like this for along time and it's how I see things. If you don't agree with me that is fine.

Now since I haven't been out or really talking to anyone, I have been reading and I am almost at my reading challenge goal of 75 books!!!! Happy for that and in 63 days I am leaving for Minnesota!!!

So much going on and super excited about my trip to Minnesota. Also I get to check out the Mall of America on the day I arrive and on Sunday night. The event I am going to ends on Sunday early evening and my flight out is on Monday. So on Sunday I will look at more of the mall and maybe do some shopping that night.

Other than kinda feeling down, things are good. I think today just had a lot of time for me and it felt weird. Oh well, I will be more busy next week since the college will be back.

Not much else to really write about. Well will post again later

Happy Day!

Today has been relaxing and very good! I stayed home and did laundry, a small workout and the chatted with Felicia.

Felicia helps with my niece and we got to have fun chatting. It's nice to just sit back and chat, we also talked about guys espically Jake Wilson and Drew Tyler who have some badass photos done by Furious Fotog!


I found some new wallpaper for my phone. Yummy

Anyways, I have been reading and making food. Health wise I'm doing okay with trying to be healthier, its the small steps but I am happy. I am working out and I feel good and now I go back tot he college next week, guess I will be getting up early for my workouts.

So I am going to watch more hulu and just relax.

Mistakes

Doing good and kinda upset over something stupid. I shouldn't be upset but I am going to get beyond it and not worry about it. It is their loss and I now realize what a stupid mistake I made a while back.

Gotta love when you realize later in life you can see through all the bull shit, now I see and I am much better off without you in my life.

On a happy note I am now starting to promote ItWorks! and I am trying the hair, nails and skin pills because it helps your hair grow, makes skin look better and will make your nails stronger. I am trying it for 3 months and we will see how long my hair gets in those 3 months.

Okay, off to workout

Start Saving

I updated my hotel reservation for October for Midwestern Book Lovers Unite Confrence and it will cost a lot but I'm okay with that. I like to splurge when I travel and I work a lot so that is why I spend a lot on a hotel room.

So I am going to work extra hard and save up, I also have a app that will help track what I save.

So tomorrow I will be working extra and on Friday too. Looks like I should put half my paycheck aside from my job everyother week. That is $200 and it's better than nothing. Also I am goign to go to a coin machine and get the money put into bills from my snoopy bank and my bruins bank.

It's a start for now, I just need to work hard this week and up until October.

I have 10 weeks to save and be ready for the hotel savings. I did the math and I would have to save $120 every week or more. So my plan is to save at least $150 every 2 weeks, this should save up about $1500 if I did my math correctly.

So I will post updates on my saving plan and I have spending money saved up already, I will save more and work extra hard. For now, going to relax then work a lot tomorrow.

Time Away

Wow, feels a lot longer since I last posted in here.

Yesterday we had a thunder and lightning storm which made my Internet go out, :(. I really do think we need the rain but some of the thunder really scared me. It made me jump too.

So I went into work thinking I had to work but was not scheduled which was nice! I went to Target and used my gift card and I signed up at planet fitness. One is coming to my hometown and it is much cheaper then the YMCA.

I will be canceling that membership and going to planet fitness but it doesn't open til the second week of September which is a bummer but I will wait.

Things have been good and I am doing good. I have been working out and doing okay with eating healthy. I am happy about my progress even though it's not big strides but I am doing good.

I think since leaving the group that I was in was a very good thing and I am much happier. Maybe I am an attention seeker which I need to work on. One person messaged me and still check ins in with me, I am happy that she does and it's nice to see how she is doing too.

So things have been good, I'm back online, did a little workout today and just relaxing.

Will try to post later t his week.

Life and work

I am so tired today. I am not really hungry at the moment so I am going to hold off on dinner.

I am keeping up with my workouts and still working on eating better which is not easy because I want all teh bad food. My food choices today have been ok, not great though.

So I worked and it felt good to just work and not be home but I still like to relax too. Been thinking of my upcoming trip even though it is in October but hey I am looking forward to it.

Not much is new with me, just working on myself and trying to be more positive. I still don't go out but I know the people around town that I know are busy and always make plans with other people. I am left out and I'm not going to worry about it anymore. If they want to spend time with me, they will have to get in touch with me.

It feels to me like people need to put in the same amount of effort as the other party otherwise the other person will get tired of trying and just give up.

All friendships/relationships are always 50/50 and it doesn't matter if you are good at messaging/calling people.

Well end of that rant. I am going to do some stuff and relax then hopefully bed early.

Doing A Little Better

So I am doing a little better and trying to get back on the right path. The group I was thinking of leaving has now had me leave and it's okay because maybe I need to be away from the group to work on myself.

I'm not in a happy place and I should work on me, wish I could afford therapy but can't so for now I am just taking one day at a time.

The admin took me out of the group and told me that I have an open invitation to come back and when I do I hope to be 100% positive and be positive.

So with that being said, someone reached out to me and is helping support me on my weight loss goals. I am very thankful for her help too and I like chatting with her even if it is about food and exercise. She is really helpful and she directed me to bodybuilding.com where there are free recipes and videos.

This way I can do a workout at home and modify it if I need too, I haven't been to the gym in awhile so this will help on the side.

I like it too plus they have an app to track everything.

I bought a fitbit scale today and I love it! I also bought another flex charger too, so I spent a lot of money and I am trying to save.

Not much else is new with me, just relaxing, reading and taking one day at a time.

like take.......

Life Take ..........

So after posting a group about leaving because I feel that I get a lot of negative feedback and yes I am a negative person.

There was a July challenge for 30 days and I started out good but really fell of the wagon. I didn't partner up with anyone and no one partnered up with me. I feel like I get no support in there or at home. It really can bring person down when you have no partner, no friends in town and no one to hold you accountable for your actions.

So there was a lot of comments on the post I made and I think I am so immune to it now that it did not bother me. Everyone had made good points and I do appreciate it.

I have not made a decision yet and let the admin know, for now I am staying inactive. I even turned off notifications for the group because I feel like I don't get a lot of support plus I have noone to impress either. My family doesn't care and I have no friends that would care or support me.

So I am still thinking this over because part of me wants to stay and part of me wants to go. If I stay I won't be active and if I go I will miss the group.

Just so you know this is a group for support in weightloss.

Now my niece is putting a christmas hat on my head.

More later

Caught Up

Finally caught up with all emails for promos and reviews on authors and books. All info is in my calender which is good, I will forget otherwise.

Worked a lot this wing to take weekend and my feet are feeling it! Tomorrow I am going to take it easy and read and do LNA homework. I have a busy week ahead of me.

Not much else I want to write, want to go to sleep soon and things have been good. Work was a little stressful but other than that, things are good. I'm working and earning money plus I'm doing good. Now I just need to put money aside for my trip in October.

I do have some news, I am now paying on my student loans again, I want to do this and start paying them off even if it takes me 20 years to do it. I put down $1000 and then it will be $150 every month for a year then do it all over again.

At least I am making an effort in paying back my loans and it will help my credit even if it is a little at a time.

Time for bed

feelings

So my grampa is on his way home and he yelled at my gram, not sure why and not sure what is going on. I am cleaning so the house looks good and he can set stuff down when he gets home. He left florida at 6am so he should be home tomorrow night or by saturday morning.

I'm really not sure on what to say about friends, the ones that live in the same town as me. I feel like they don't want me around and they don't put effort in so why should I? that is how I feel, I feel that I put effort in and they don't and yes it goes both ways.

One person is in another country for family and I thought they were going next month not in July. Oh well, really feel like noone wants me around so just going to stay home, read, clean eat food and relax.

Not much else is new with me, working and reading, so back to reading I go.

Beach Day = Sunburned feet

I had fun at the beach but my feet are badly burned :(

I am taking care of them and relaxing at home. Just scheduled a lot if posts for  my review page, a lot of cover reveals too. So much to post.

Did some reading today and then going out in a bit. I have not gone out except for work and I am okay with that.

No one has stopped by either but I'm not expecting them too so I get to relax, read and binge on hulu.

More later

Beach day!

I'm at the beach with my aunt. We always leave early only to get a parking spot and we got one. 

It was cloudy when we got here but then the sun came out. The sun has made me tired and I'm just beat. At least I'm getting vitamin d.

It's cloudy now but that's okay, the water is super freezing but when the sun beats on you the water feels nice!

We went shopping at one of our favorite stores called Zinna which is jewlery and I ought a lot but only spent $80 so if you go to Hampton Beach, go on a budget for spending.

Okay, maybe more later since I may nap but I also have to work at 4pm at genesis.

Maybe a post later but will see.

Pool and Sun!

So I have been out at my aunts the last couple of days laying in the sun and going into her pool. My aunt is on vacation and I wanted to get some color before we go to the beach, yes I am pasty white.

I do have some color now and it feels good to  be outside. I'm glad I have gone over and it's nice to be swimming.

The weather this weekend is calling for rain but that is ok because I have a lot of books to read and I need to get them done ASAP.

I just found another book group I am in on facebook so that is 3 book clubs plus my review page and blog, I'm very busy. Got my steps in today and now relaxing plus I get to sleep in tomorrow!!!

More later

Been Awhile

I don't remember the last time I posted in here. I have been busy and have many books to read as well. I'm on book 9 or 10 at the moment.

Anyways, been down a little and not sure why. Was invited out on Monday but I didn't go because I'm not sure if I want to be around people. I don't know what I am feeling and I hate being this way too.

Not much is new, I do have exciting news for today!

My scrubs and my book will be delivered today!!!! I did need new scrubs for work and the book was very cheap on Amazon so I get 2 things in the mail today and I'm excited. I will post about it later.

Requesting books

SO I just requested 3 books on netgalley and hope to review them. One of them I may not be able too but it's okay and I'm waiting in suspense!

Work went okay today and I got out late but that is not unusual. I am working this coming weekend for a coworker and it's only 4 hours both Saturday and Sunday which works for me.

Nothing else really going on, have a few reviews to write up so I can post them tomorrow and I may look into going back to school for editing. I like reading books and I am going to see if there is any way reviewers could get paid. I doubt it but going to look.

July 4th Weekend

Happy 4th to everyone, I know I am a day late but it's okay.

I didn't do much for the holiday weekend but I also worked at my nursing jobs. It's holiday pay so why not?

Also I wasn't invitied out anywhere which is okay because last night I was so exhausted that I was in bed early! I never go to bed early and sleep like a baby. So yesterday was a very long day for me. Work went well and I cam home after 7pm and relaxed.

Did a review lastnight for Alpha Book Club and now reading another book, I have so many!!!!

Not much is new with me, just been thinking and turning my negitive self into positivity. Not easy but I am doing it! I haven't gone out with friends and it may be better to stay away from them. I don't think they want me round and none of them talk to me either and I'm okay with that.

Any relationship is 50/50. Both parties have to put int the work.

So I am just online for a bit then I may go outside and lay down in the sun, need to put spun screen on to protect my tattoos.

More later if I am not tired again. Working at 3pm today.

Work,Gym and being healthy

Well I went to the gym today so that  makes 2 times this week! I am feeling good too and I'm glad I decided to do a 30 day challenge. I think it is what I needed.

A friend talked to me Monday about stuff and it made me want to go to the gym so I thanked that person. It helped.

I now have been a bit better this week and I am feeling good so getting out has been good. I am making food for dinner and in case work calls me in. I got a call this morning but couldn't go because of home health care. Sucks but it's okay because I go in tonight and will be prepared in case they call me in early so I can eat on a half hour break.

I have FIT radio playing and I love it!!! Mixes all the time.

So now back to my lovely google calender because I am posting and reviewing for 2 groups and my own page, it's a lot but I now know that I can schedule posts for future times and I won't have to worry. I'm glad I was picked to be in a group where I can learn all this stuff with google and authors use google docs a lot so I should use them too and the calender helps too.

Okay, more later and I need to get laundry into the dryer.

Kicking Ass Today!!!

I joined a 30 day challenge and decided to start early. I am going to go to the gym 3 times a week and have an ab challenge too. I also will try to eat healthy through out the 30days, log all food and water.

So far  today has been good, I have done very well even though I want to eat the lasagna I made yesterday. Guess I will have some tomorrow and figure out the rest of the week.

I did go to the gym today and did weight and the ab challenge, I am tired but I am also out of shape too. So going back to the gym feels good. Also downloaded the app called fitmusic and I  love it!!! You can pick and its all mixed and ready for you.

I love mixes of music and it kept me going at the gym today :)

Okay, I need to do other things and relax.

Dreary Day

Today I worked but I also got most of the day off which is nice. It is very gloomy outside which sucks but there is rain in the forecast.

Anyways I was upset earlier about stupid stuff and now I am feeling better. I made lasagna today and added in spinach, some kale, asparagus into the beef. I have not tired it yet but will. I also ate ice cream and pizzza because I was stressed out.

Oh well, starting a 30 day challenge in July and will see what happens with it. I am aslo goign to watch movies on hulu or just one movie then read before bed.

Not much else is going on in my life at least not today.

Family Outing

I am home from a family outing and it went better than I expected it to go. I usually feel so out of place and just don't fit in at all when I am around family.

There was food and I am trying to lower my cholesterol and the food we had at the cookout was not healthy, so today will be cheat day and tomorrow will be healthy day.

I do feel bad for my cousin because she only had family there today and she even put it on facebook and invited friends too but no one showed. I wasn't doing anything else today and drove over.

My baby cousin was cute and met my cousins boyfriend and I ate a lot of food.

So I guess I shouldn't think this way again but it's so hard because I really feel like I am a failure with my family and that I will never be good enough. It sucks being this way, going to try and be more positive.

Family and Open House

I'm going to see family today but part of me wants to stay home. My cousin bought a house and is having an open house today which is fine. I feel like I'm not good enough to even go.

My cousin is Miss perfect, with the perfect life and car and house and child and she is just perfect in every way.

I'm the loser of the family and no matter how hard I try, I will never be good enough for them. It sucks because I love my family but I really don't think my family loves me. None of us are close at all and I can tell you know is close to me. It just sucks.

I work hard and feel like it is for nothing! I try to better myself but my cousin is the perfect one and I'm the loser. I may just stay home and if I go either I am walking or I will drive myself so I can leave when I want to.

I have internet!!!

Hi everyone! I am unsure of when I last posted in here, feels a lot longer than what it probably is.

Good news.....I have internet!!! Finally got it installed at home so I don't have to use the app or go to the public library. I can now save on my data plan and I can stream!!! Super excited!

Not much is new, I need to read a lot more and start other books too. I have been working and I will be doing my LNA Mods for home health care. We did get rain today and now it is so hot outside! Crazy weather.

Okay, I may post again today but will see, need to do LNA homework.

Crappy day

I have been slacking!!! 

Also having a crappy day but oh well. Things have been ok, nothing major going on and just working.

Going to get internet soon which is a plus. Been working and reading too. I did get to beta for an author which I loved what she sent me.

Wish I could say more about it but can't until the books come out.

I'm ok, just not happy mentally. I guess I like attention and I really don't get any of that. It's like I'm a total loser no matter what I do in life.

It sucks and I can't afford therapy but did find an app that lets you talk to some for much cheaper then what you would pay a therapist which is good.

Haven't tried it yet but hopefully will.

More later, tired, bed, work all day tomorrow.

At The Library

I'm at the Keene Public Library and I was here to do LNA homework for my home health care job. Its a requirment and I get paid for it. I did 3 LNA Mods which is good but I get tired from doing them online.

I also looked up the reange for cholesterol and according to what I found, my cholesterol is high but the nurse I spoke with said it was a little high. I'm so confused about it and they will test my cholesterol again in 1-2 years. I don"t like that.

Anyways will be booking my ticket tonight to Minnesota for October, found a good deal going out of Manchester, NH and it will  be easier for my family if they pick me up and drop me off. Boston is cheaper but it's crazy down there so I chose to pay extra and fly out of Manchester.

Not much is new but I have read 4 books so far this month. I still need to put up a review for the book I recently finished. I am also currently reading another book and will start another soon. I have so many to read!

I'm sorry if I misspell anything. I am tired from LNA homework and my fingers don't do well when I am trying to type.

Okay, I need to go since I drove to the library because it looked like rain today and my time is almost up on the meter. I will try to post more later tonight. I will post my review on the book I finished.

Homework

I did some homework for my LNA license (Licend Nurse Assistant). I have to have 12 Continuing Education Units every year to renew my LNA. I did two mods today and I am caught up on hours for the nursing home which is good. I still need to get caught up with home health care.

I have been at the library and I'm ready to stretch and check a book out. Haven't done that in awhile but I'm going to try a different book.

Have the rest of today off unless the kitchen calls me in but I haven't heard from them yet. If not I will take a walk later.

Not much is new. Been reading and finished 2 books this month, starting another one and need to get reviews up on blog (Cassandra's Reviews). I have my reviews up on Amazon and goodreads thanks to the kindle app which updates both. That is a nice perk.

Okay, I will post more at some point. I need to stretch my limbs and I am now working in the kitchen tonight. Not bad, I do need the hours and it's a free meal too.

okay more later.

Lazy Rainy Sunday

It is raining finally. We have had a lot of hot weather and just needed the rain which is good.

So I read 2 books today and one of them I did not finish. It didn't appeal to me in the second half of the book and it just turned me off so reviews will go up later for those and going to finish another book soon.

I was talking to a friend yesterday and we were chatting with a friend. They were trying to find me a "hot date". It was fun talking and laughing. I enjoyed the conversation. My friend (male) said something along the lines of he didn't wan to date me. At this time a buzzer was going off so I answered but before doing that I said, "oh I'm not good enough for you?" and answered the buzzer.

I know he was joking but it did hurt a little. I know he doesn't want to date  either and I have known that for a long time.               We talked today and he did ask me "do you really want to date a guy like me?"

Since he asked me that I really thought about it and asked myself if I really want to date him, I'm not sure and I'm not sure what I want in life. It's a good question too but like I said I'm not sure of much these days.

So I have been reading and watching movies today since I have the rest of today off.

One good thing of today was donating stuff to the Wolfpack Rugby team yard sale on June 13th. I got rid of stuff and ended up giving more than I expected but I am happy to donate.

Okay, more later and now to read

Writing

So I did know what I wanted to wrrrrrrrite about in here but don't remember.

Anyways, doing good and feeling much better since getting a high dose of Vitamin D. Since my levels were very low, I needed medication. I'm hoping when they test my blood again that I will be okay. I will just have to make sure to take Vitamin D supplements.

It sucks that at 31 years old, my health is going down hill well not so bad but still it sucks. It is also because of the way I eat and that I am inside a lot because I work so much. Now I am trying to eat better and will start a multivitamin just to be safe.

I'm also donating some stuff to the Monadnock Wolfpack rugby team yard sale and need to drop stuff off to one of the players. It's going to a good cause.

I did message someone on facebook today because I haven't seen them in awhile and I miss te
hem. Hopefully I will hear back from them too.

Other than that not much is new. Just working and helping my grandfather out plus been going for walks and relaxing.

Haven't done much either but trying to do a few things. Okay, more later and goodnight.

My Health

I always thought I was heathy and not like super healthy but healthy enough. Well after having blood drawn to see if anything was wrong, there is something wrong.

Go figure, well I have high cholesterol and low      Vitamin D levels. I have been tired too lately and normally I get enough sleep. So I have to have a high dose of Vitamin D for 17 weeks then have blood work again to make sure my levels are good.

Everything else is fine, just those 2 things are not good. Also the high cholesterol can come from my eating habits and from what I have eaten growing up. I'm sure cholesterol runs in the family because you eat what they eat and it goes  back. I asked my aunt but I don't think her side has it but I do believe my mom and gram may have it.

Anyways, I need to pick up my prescription since I got a text from Target pharmacy saying it was ready. Probably should start it tonight.

So if you read this, try and eat healthy even if you make a small change in your diet, better than not making a change at all.

More later

Random Thoughts

Just combined change containers and I have saved up a lot of change, going to keep adding to it and build it up more.

I have been thinking and it's not good but we all have days like that.

I'm miserable but that is nothing new. my weight went up and found out my cholesterol is high which I need to get back down.

I hate my weight but I have not done a lot to get my weight down. I have been out walking and have been sticking with it. I'm hoping to go running or at least start jogging.

I need to do something to get out this misery, it just sucks and I need to go through all my tea that I have. I didn't label any so might need tot throw it out but not sure how long loose leaf tea will last.

So going to work through my misery and hopefully be happier by later today. My shopping yesterday was fun with my aunt and I stayed on a budget so its all good but need to do something now.

Later

My Health and Tired

So  I had an annual doctor's appointment last week and had blood work done. Somw was just usual like thyroid, blood sugar, triglycerides and cholesterol. Everything is okay except my cholesterol, its 217. So now I need to call another doctor and see what I need to do.

I am going to have to change my eating habits and I am out walking. Looks like I need to do more exercising and really change my eating habits. I think that is what is causing my cholesterol to be high. This will suck but but I want to be healthy so I need to make changes.

I have been drinking my scarlet jasmine tea and  I have water with lemon in it in the frig.

Windy out

Today is very windy outside. I was not expecting wind.

Anyways I am tired but I was up early for bloodwork and had to fast before it so I stopped eating and drinking lastnight at 9pm. I got it done and there wasn't a long wait.

Testing my cholesterol, bloodsugar, and other things. I do want to know what my cholesterol is too. I'm afraid it may be high with the way I eat so I'm hoping that it is at good levels insttttttead of bad levels. Won't know til next week.

Not much is new, need to do more posting and I got 2 more reviews done yesterday! I have morre to do and maybe readiing. Was gooing to read yesterday but my LNA homework is priority so I did that.

Still have LNA homework to do but today is a relaxing day too since I am tired and I want tot ake things easy before working tonight.

I worked last night even though I wasn't on the schedule and the cook was being a dick. I got to leave early so that was the only good part. I'm back to work tonight but I do need the hours.

Okay, may post later and need to send an email out so I'm going to do that and need to fill out time sheets too.

Rainy Day

Its lightly raining at the moment but I want it to be cooler.

I have alot to post and working too. Some days are better than others and other days suck.

I have been walking and trying to eat better but its not easy! It sucks even though it is a better lifestyle.

Not much is new and don't have much to say right now but maybe later.

Been a little while

Not much new with me, just working    and helping family. I'm not working a whole lot but I am doing stuff to stay busy.

I have read and finishes like 3 books, got an invite to an event in 2017. have vacations planned out for next year and things are good, just need to work more is all.

today I have a doctors appointment and then I am relaxing after it. Looks like the sun is coming out.

I think I will need to get new shirts for my review blog and page. I got one from vista but I'm not liking how it looks. It was a test run to see what   it would look like and I only got one. So I will look into that later.

More later

Book Splash

So this is about Book Splash 2016 and it is just my opinion and if you don't like it then move on because I will sate what I want.

I called Big Peach Tree travel agency to book for book splash and I got one phone call back from them. I did return the call and I keep calling and calling. I never get a phone call back and by now I would give them no stars at all!

I want to go on this cruise but they can't be bothered to call me back. I hate it when a compny does this and I won't be going either.

I am okay with not going anyways since I don't like the travel company and this happened when they did booksplash 2015, I          never got a call back.

Its okay because I have 3 conventions lined up next year for March, April and May so I think I am good for now.

I'm going to watch Shrek and relax and destress for the night, have work in the morning and helping family.

Quick post

A quick post for today. I walked tot he library and it feels good to outside walking, Wish the weather would cool down a bit.

Updating some stuff then back home to relax. I'm glad the college is done and I only have 2 jobs but need to be wise about how I spend my money.

Now to look something up then head home, more later

Mother's Day

So it's Mother's Day and I don't have kids and I mailed cards out.

It's hard for me because I am envious that other people get to spoil there moms and I don't, it hurts me too.

My mom did not raise me, she was in my life but my gram is more like a mom to me then my real mom. I see all the posts on facebook and it sucks that every mom out there gets a day for them and I can't do anything for my gram. My gram is down south, my mom went down to take care of her after she had a mini stroke and now my mom is sick.

I don't really talk to my mom much and rarely see her but she also lies right to you and you don't know what is the truth or what is a lie from her. I don't spend time with her because of that and I don't feel like she is much of a mom.

That is why today I'm trying to stay off facebook and I will be reading too. It hurts to see that every mother out there is getting pampered and I can't do anything for my gram.

It's Friday and doing Better

TGIF!

Yesterday was my last day at the college since they go on summer break in a few days. I am now working 2 jobs and hopefully I can rest some. I am taking a few days next week for me to relax and update my laptop. I was thinking of getting a new laptop but not sure what to get so that is going on hold til I figure it out.

Also still in my rut but I am doing better. I am going to do a detox tomorrow and I have work too so this will be interesting.

Not much else is new with me. Just working and reading and I have been a reading machine! I need to read more since I have downloaded a lot of books!

So I will post more later or post tomorrow.

Feels longer

I didn't realize how long ago I last posted in this blog! 

I must have been really busy with family and work that I forgot. 

Anyways things are good, last week at the college cafeteria! Going to take a few days for me next week and relax plus update my laptop. I haven't used it in months!!!

Also it's hot out! I'm happy for warm weather but I need a fan, it's so hot out.

Not much is new with me just working and getting through this week. 

Well I should say congrats to Duchess Kate and Prince William on the arrival of their daughter. She has a beautiful name too.

Other then that, things are ok. I hope to post more later or will post later in the week.

Not sure anymore

I'm not sure about a lot of things anymore and it sucks. I try to stay positive but it's hard especially at home and work. 

Work is fine but there are people that always put me down so that is one reason why I don't move up in a company.

The other thing that has me down is like zilch friends. I have one but she is 3 hours away plus she works a lot like I do. I did get to see her a week ago which was nice but I still miss her.

The other "friend" cares more about her cosplay friends than her friendship with me. I have decided to not care because I'm that much of a loser to her.

Yes she is packing to move but she should at least try and talk to me but never does. Her cosplay friends are that much cooler than me.

Oh well, it's your loss!

I'm working today and hope to relax after. Not doing much, going to clean and do laundry then relax.

That's all for today.

Today

I'm done trying with friends, really I am. They tell me they want me around but don't make an effort themselves to want me around. 

Cosplaying is way more important and that inner circle is more important.

Whatever, I'm not going to try and just work because it's about the only thing I do well at is work.

I am almost done with work at the college and may take a few days off for me to relax then work a lot of hours.

More later

Dare is on Sale!!!

Dare is on sale for $0.99! 

I read this book and LOVED IT!

It's a roller coaster of emotions but will have you keep coming back for more. Check it out

Reading and music

I really want to listen to music and read since I have a week to read and review the book that was sent to me.

Ahhhh, I don't like how I have such little time! Okay I need to read a lot today plus listen to music and work at the same time.

Not much else is new, just working and life is good. I am a little upset that friends didn't invite me out this past weekend but I'm not going to cry about it,

It's their loss!

Anyways got to see my big sis when she was passing through town which was nice since its been 2 years since we saw each other.

Other than that life is good and the weather is warming up!!!

More later.

My Weekend in Boston

This is more of a rant and great weekend in Boston post.

I went to Anime Boston and roomed with my friend. He drove down to Alewife station and we took the T in which was better than going to Concord and getting on the bus there then the T at South Station.

The first day was good and I was okay with everything. Friday was like more of my friend wanted to be around me the whole day and I like to do stuff on my own so it was kinda weird that he wanted to be around that much.

Saturday was a good day but it was very windy out! I went to the con and then the Bruins game later that night. My friend knows the T better than me and I let him lead the way since I have never been to TD Garden. Anyways we got there and the bruins won which was fantastic!!!

So my rant part is that my friend only thinks of themselve because I wanted to stay and watch the closing part of the game but no, my friend wanted to leave and that is what we did. Got back on the T and went back tot he hotel.

I felt like he was in the biggest rush and didn't care about anyone else but him.

I think next year I will room by myself and this way its just me in a room and I don't have to worry about anyone but me. I am glad that I got this experiance and I am not used to being around him that length of time.

Sometimes doing these things is always good because you learn and grown form them. I'm happy that I went to the bruins game and I plan to go to more.

end of rant/post

Crazy life

Life is busy and crazy right now but I will post more tonight. Gotta work.

Gram and a Stroke

I found the other day that my gram was in the hospital from falling. I'm glad she has lifeline to call for help anddd she got help This morning she calls at 730am and I answered the phone and it was my gram She told me the doctors have finally diagnosed what happened and she had a mini stroke.

She lives by herself in Florida and she can't travel til she gets the okay from the doctors. My mom is going down on Friday to be with her and I'm glad someone is

My gram is also playing mind games with me, my aunt and my grampa. My gram nearly had me in tears andddd I almost cried to my aunt after and she could tell I was on the verge of crying.

I think my aunt knows me better than I know mysef which is good and I sometimes handle stress in a bad way. Sometimes its anger and when its family stressing me out or making me choose whcih grndparent to live with stresses me out.

That is what my gram was doing and when I had called my aunt, found out that my gram has been playing mind games and can't make up her mind. Now she will need to come home and either have 24 hour care or have help one way or another.

I love my grandparents and they raised me since I was 2 years old. They are like my Mom and Dad to me. I just hate when one wants me to choose them and say "to hell with your grandfather", it tears me apart and I just want to cry.

I am glad that I can talk to my aunt and see her at the nursing home and glad that she lives in town too and not far away. It helps when I chat with her.

Okay, going to watch a movie and relax before bed.

Friends and waiting

Today has been a lazy day for me which I LOVE!!!!!

I was going to see Jen but she took forever to respond then didn't respond for over an hour and I am done waiting for other people. I'm not going to do that anymore so I am at home today.

I am also healing from a tattoo on Friday plus I plan on half sleeves in the fall/winter.

I am also reading Ghostly which is good too so I will be getting back to that in a bit.

Getting stuff together

So I bought a google play card today because I have the Microsoft app and that is $6.99 a month so if I stock up on  google play cards, I should be good.

In other news, things are good and getting my Alice cosplay together and only need to buy shoes! I mayyy buy another costume which is a Greek goddess and its a good deal on amazon.

Talked to my aunt today and it was nice to see her and I picked up hours for spring break too. At least I will be making money and more can go into the bank.

Have photo shoots scheduled and looking forward to Anime Boston this year.

Now to figure out what to wear for the book conference in October but that can wait.

Don Allen

donallen fitness facebook

metroflexdon@gmail.com

Damn Keyboard! Wig cam in

Damn keyboard froze and I had to reonnect it. So my post was not saved.

anyways I am cosplaying at Anime Boston as Alice or Um from the 2010 Alice in Wonderland. I have the dress and the wig came yesterday. Forgot how hot those wigs make your head but it is for fun plus I have photo shoots for it too.

So not much else is new and I will use my phone next time when I post. Don't want the keyboard to freeze up again.
I will post later or tomorrow.

Life

So I have been unhappy but trying to be more positive and I going to the gym 2x a week.

If you read my posts and don't like it, tough. I don't care and I will write what I want.

Anyways I didn't stay long today at the gym because it was almost closing time. Did do a 45 minute workout. I have made my reservation for Minnesota in October and that is out of the way, just need plane tickets.

More later, I'm going to relax.

Life

Well things are mostly good and dealing with some other stuff. I do have some good news but not a lot.

1. I got a free copy of Epiphany part 2 for an honest review and I loved the first book! So I'm excited to read that.

2. I'm still going strong on my 52 week money challenge! That thing rocks and I love it!!!

3. I'm working a lot  but I would like to take extra money to Boston in April for the con and if I want to buy anything so saving will be good. Maybe a set amount is a wise idea.

The not so good news is just stuff I don't think I will post here. I am going to keep it private and if I could mark a post private on here I would. I don't remember if you can do that but oh well.

Need to think about some stuff and figure out what to do for the hotel room. I already have my own transportaion to Boston for AB and I am going to a Bruins game that weekend too!!!!! So excited!!!

Other then that, not much else to write about at the moment. I have been drinking more water which is a goal of mine and I have been drinking less soda, go me!

Now to figure out the rest of my life and stuff for AB. Need to go do laundry and get eady for work. I will try to post later today if I have energy.